I have been posting on this blog once a week, but this week I had expected that I might not write at all.
I thought, “I have too much anxiety this week. My life is turning upside down. I can’t think straight. I can’t write.”
Then I realized, “That is exactly why I should write.”
Recently, I took some pictures of Spring branches and used them in a post. The branches were bare to start with, but tiny buds turned to flowers and a few leaves. The photos showed beauty, but they also showed change.
Some people looked at my photos of blossoming branches and made comments about the speed of nature and the speed of life.
Sometimes life is too slow and we are impatient. Sometimes it is too fast and we want it to stop.
Today, thirteen days after I brought them home, the branches still hold my attention. Most of the flowers have now withered or shattered.
Petals are strewn across the tablecloth. That is not a serious problem for me. Something is always strewn across the tablecloth around here, and it is normally far worse and more difficult to remove than a few pink petals.
The branches have changed again. They are not bare, however. The few green leaves have become many. At this point, there are more leaves than flowers. Something dies and something else appears.
I am thinking about closed doors and open windows. I am thinking about caterpillars and butterflies. I am thinking about the nature of change. I am thinking about chaos, about simplicity, and about Life, and how it is never the way we plan it out, or the way we expect it to be.
That is the adventure of it, right?
Our family is preparing for a move. This is a forced downsizing of our household, for financial reasons. My life will change dramatically over the next six weeks. Such is the nature of life.
Life is messy and stressful.
Life is surprising and interesting.
Life changes and we change with it.
One of my mothers-in-law ( I have two) refers to problems, difficulties, or struggles as Periods of Growth — as in, “Her husband left her with six children and no support, and wow, she experienced a real Period of Growth.”
My Period of Growth will be relatively minor, but I will grow and I will change.
It will be interesting to see how I turn out.